The Way for Belén
Belén Sánchez is the victim/survivor who made it possible to bring Vargas and Panza to trial. Her story broke on April 25, 2017, when she made a post on Facebook in which she pointed out the abusers. She was 21 years old at the time and the events she denounced occurred when she was between 8 and 11 years old. Thanks to her posting evidence, another victim also broke the silence and appeared in court.
Six years after that publication on social media, Belén spoke with UNO and reflected on the path for Justice that she undertook and the vicissitudes of an unequal struggle, in which the victim, as in her case, had to expose herself to be heard.
Currently, at the age of 27, Belén works and studies Occupational Health & Safety at an institute in the province of Buenos Aires. Far from her native Santa Elena, she affirms that she got ahead because of the many people who supported her: family, friends, neighbors, acquaintances, feminist groups, as well as her lawyer Valeria Burkhard; María Elena González, former teacher and former municipal official in the Women’s area; and the prosecutor Facundo Barbosa.
“I made the case visible from day one with the intention of raising awareness and also to save other children. Although it was very painful for me, I learned to live with the pain. Feminism and people who believed me helped me”, says the young woman. And she adds: “Many girls were encouraged to speak after my case. That is what gives me strength. Being the voice of those who could not speak.”
Belén is aware that the situation of abuse and the judicial process that she had to go through left marks on her. They are psychological and emotional marks that she tries to put into words. “I am like a glass about to break, but that does not break completely, but has its marks. Sometimes everything overwhelms me. It is sad to live in my shoes. The things that I have to face in another way I face with blows. Currently, I tell my story because there are girls who, when listening to me, can talk about something that they have not even told their parents”, she reflects and reveals that she suffers from post-traumatic stress.
This suffering has a cause: the abuses and a long re-victimizing judicial process. “What I question about Justice is why you have to expose yourself so much. You have to face the pain because otherwise things do not work out. It is sad that this happens. Justice should act firmly in all cases. The victims should not have to expose themselves so much for you to believe them. I had to go through a lot,” she says.
On the way to reaching a conviction, she suffered setbacks, accusations and disagreements from some people who questioned her story. “At one point I thought that life had no meaning. But later I understood that I did many things that helped other people. I had not seen that in myself,” she says.
“Now that I live far from my town I try to look forward. I came from Santa Elena because I didn’t want to see their faces (because of the abusers) and also because there was no work. In the town it is also the case that there are people who are not very tactful with what they ask. Just as I was applauded by many people, I was also pointed out as a person who did not do things well. There were people who told my friends not to interfere. I had to leave that behind,” she says from a distance.
When bad memories overwhelm her, Belén found a way to feel better, a kind of key for that marked crystal to rebuild herself. “Whenever I get panic attacks I remember the song ‘I come to offer my heart’, by Fito Páez. The lyrics say ‘who said that all is lost, I come to offer my heart’. I think I have the heart broken but I still helped other people,” she confides.
The song is a hymn for Belén. A hymn that expresses her feelings: to help other causes obtain justice. When the occasion presents itself, she participates in marches, accompanies victims and listens to the stories of women who did not dare to cross the threshold of silence.
“I was able to be the voice of the girls who could not speak what these people did to them. I am grateful to the Justice that listened to me and believed, because not all girls have that opportunity. We must appreciate that, despite the slowness, the conviction is reached. I understand the girls who did not speak, because it is hard to see the faces of the abusers in court.”
At the end, she refers that in the trial that was held against her abusers, Vargas and Panza, something changed: “In the trial there were all the people who loved me and I was not afraid. The fear broke. From the day of the sentences the fear passed to them”.