I don’t want to do this anymore. I never did.
This is not love. This is not fun – the game you play.
You’re taking away pieces of me, that I will have to fight to regain.
Please stop being selfish; by continuing to hurt me.
You can still be a good person. You just have to set yourself free.
I know you are broken too. I know someone took pieces from you.
But you chose not to seek help… and you chose to hurt me too.
This world is already hard enough. Don’t make it harder for me.
The damage you are doing, will forever stay with me.
Please stop being selfish; by continuing to hurt me.
You could have been a good person, but you refused to set yourself free.
How does it feel now? Reaping what you’ve sown?
Do you think about me? The others? All the pain you’ve caused.
When the cell door closes, do you cry inside?
Wishing you’d made better choices, but now you’re all alone.
You were so selfish. You took joy from hurting me.
You refused to be a good person, and now you are not free.
I still hope you find peace. The peace you denied me.
Hopeful you’ll seek counsel, to heal the broken child within yourself.
But I cannot forgive you for what you’ve done to me.
I will forgive myself… I was a child who did not know…
I thought the games you played were normal, because you told me so.
You made me keep your secrets, you made me tell lies.
Now I tell the truth. I shout for all to hear.
You are my father, and you’re evil – because of you I lived in fear.
I am finding closure. I am healing fast. The darkness isn’t as dark.
I see sunshine through the clouds, and now my smiles are more often real.
You must be embarrassed. You must hate that part of you.
So you try to bury it deep within, but the monster always wins.
How can you say you are a man of God, and claim to be one of his chosen?
You hide behind your bible. You hide more than just your sin.
You speak of your God Jehovah, how we cannot hide from him. Then dress yourself in Watchtower’s, and judge your fellow man.
All the while you live a lie, and hide from your so-called friends that you are a monster hiding secrets, and you won’t think twice on biting them.
Please don’t be selfish. Stop hurting yourself and others too.
It’s okay to get help, and set your mind free.